Since I've been here, I've never known any fear. I drank whatever I could and took Whatever was near. From the highest proof alcohol I can't recall all the drugs I took or did I even take them at all.

 

Looking at life through these 3D eyes, If what I'm seeing is real then reality lies. I don't realize if it feels so good how can it be so bad? My mind travels through foreign lands. Don't bring me back. Let me roam as far as I can. Let my feet sink into the warm soft sand.

 

Deeper than you think, feeling everything. Can you imagine how my soul sings with the bells ring. It's a mystery how many fantasies can become your destiny or become your worst dreams so hold me next to your breast. Let me hear your heartbeat. I'm Sorry, cause you can never see what I see.

Can you see me? Would ever you wanna be me? Can you ever see what I see. Can you know me? Can you love, can you hold me? Cause crazy life will leave you lonely. 

Falsely accused of being unreal, breaking the rules and breaking the ceal. To me the open wounds will never heal. Now I find everyday the more I try the more I slip away. Guess that's  the price you pay to live this way.

 

 

Like an animal trapped in a cage and if I tell you will you ever look at me the same. It's a pity that people walk around this city living their lives so gritty. Ruling your own world unjust and petty.

 

 

And as the seasons change so does the leaves and so does my moods. I try to keep it straight but people think I'm rude. How to conclude my solitude or find a love I know is true, sexual with an attitude. Will it ever lie in you? I guess we'll never know. Will you see what I see and where you go where I go. For now I go with the flow and I hope to never lose control. No. I hope I never lose control.

 

Can you see me? Would ever you wanna be me? Can you ever see what I see. Can you know me? Can you love, can you hold me? Cause crazy life will leave you lonely. 

I can't explain. Stress eating my soul and leaving my remains. My worlds are crumbling but who's to blame. All you know about me is what I let you see or can you see insanity falling like these autumn leaves. Through my misery. I manage to find beauty in my history so in the end how will you remember me? With every passing minute, I'm getting more paranoyd. Who will criticize me and how will media expoid.I try to drown the voice echoing in my head. I know it's almost the end. I'd rather die with a pen than  a friend.

 

I know I'm young still. I know I'm dumb still . Numb in the brain with a soul in the landfill. No one to blame but the hand on the blue pill. How can I kill when I know that it's not real. I guess it's not real Though it feels real to me. It's like a dream in a dream Why can't you see what I see?

 

Can you see me? Would ever you wanna be me? Can you ever see what I see. Can you know me? Can you love, can you hold me? Cause crazy life will leave you lonely. 

I wrote this back when I was 19 or 20 and still doing music. It was written as a rap. I never put it to music. Shortly after this I moved to Texas to get my mind straight. 

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